Personal Reflection

On November 14, I had just come home from a long day at work. We had an in-service that afternoon and my head was pounding with a headache. Before making dinner, I checked my phone: no messages. In the five minutes it took to warm up my dinner and sit down, a voicemail had come through. It was an urgent message from family telling me that there was an emergency. Nothing could have prepared me for what came next.

I had to dial twice before I was able to get through. I received the word that my nephew had been called from this life into eternity. I sat in my chair, stunned. I think I asked for the news to be repeated. My mother was sobbing in the background and could barely speak at first. This is a woman who is no stranger to pain and suffering and was now preparing to bury her grandchild. In the normal course of life, you go to God first and the younger generation(s) bury you. It was odd, knowing that the roles were now going to be reversed.

At the funeral on November 22, different people got up to remember my nephew. I heard from many people what he meant to them. They all said the exact same thing: how he was a caring individual who had an exceptional ability to talk about something mundane for about 2 hours and make it sound important or exciting. He made people feel loved, even if he himself was not particularly feeling too well that day. Hearing these things has made me reflect upon my own life.

My formation in the Benedictine monastic tradition has instilled within me many values that I hold near and dear to my heart. The first word of the Holy Rule of St. Benedict is ausculta, listen. I strive to be open to what people say, and not just their literal words but beyond them to what is in the heart. My presence, for example, at the debate this past October was about demonstrating that I hear the concerns over the third part of the secret. I wanted to share my findings with others who also care and hopefully begin to heal a terrible division that has arisen.

In this life, friends, we need to be mindful of what is important: God—family—friends. In that order. We know not the day nor the hour when we shall be called from this life into eternity. When it happens, all that we take with us is the record of our life. If we have done the will of the Eternal Father, we shall be saved. As we continue in this Advent season, preparing ourselves for the coming of Christ, I am going to try and follow the example of my nephew and be more caring to people.


I would like to say hello and welcome to everyone who is checking out my web site after viewing the documentary Fatima: The Last Mystery on EWTN.

A friend called to notify me that it aired on November 4 in the evening. I wrote about this documentary last year (December 13). If I am reading correctly the EWTN web site, the next showing will be Monday, November 6th at 12:30 a.m. (central or eastern, I do not know).

Incidentally, I am preparing some significant news, so stay tuned!

Fátima and Zavala

Versión en español aquí

Hello Everyone! Summer is winding down but life is still as busy as ever!

I want to write about the book El secreto mejor guardado de Fátima by the Spanish writer José María Zavala. Earlier this summer, Zavala received some publicity from the famous Italian journalist and vaticanista Marco Tosatti. I have seen that Zavala’s work is being discussed in various circles and decided to take a look at the book. The present post is not intended to be a strict book review. Rather, I want to highlight some things that are of interest.

In summary: I am not a fan of El secreto mejor guardado de Fátima.

Zavala attempts to talk about Fátima, matters pertaining to the famous third part of the secret are a special focus. I am reluctant to say that Zavala has a mind for conspiracy, but neither does he shy away from it. In fact, he adds to the headache of existing conspiracies with the introduction of a letter attributed to Sr. Lúcia and dated 1 April, 1944.[1]

This document gives a much sought after “interpretation” of the third part of the secret of Fátima. Zavala came across the document, found it interesting, and provides the conclusion(s) from a professional analysis of the handwriting in the back of his book (297-320). Zavala earlier prefaced the report in his book with an entire chapter (10) entitled La carta (233-268). I believe the document to be a fraud and I state my belief unequivocally.[2] I will here explain my reasons.

The biography of Sr. Lúcia from the Carmelites of Coimbra, Um caminho sob o olhar de Maria, goes a long way to offer some answers on this matter. Zavala was clearly aware of the biography. He cites it in his own book (pgs. 266-267) and included it in the bibliography (p. 321). Critical to my discussion is the fact that the biography provides us with an account from Sr. Lúcia about how the third part of the secret was written. I have written elsewhere on this history.

For our purposes here, Our Lady made a key distinction between the vision and its meaning (significado). She ordered that the vision be written, but not its meaning. This fact was previously unknown to the larger public until 2013 and helps to address some discrepancies that have arisen over the years. Nevertheless, Zavala evidences that it is apparent that the biography has yet to take firmer root in people’s understanding of Fátima.

As the above pertains to Zavala’s book and the alleged letter of Sr. Lúcia, I wish to point out a couple of things. First, notice the date of the letter: 1 April, 1944. The date is just shy of three months from the January 3rd, 1944 apparition of Our Lady to Sr. Lúcia. If the 1 April letter is authentic, what was the point of Our Lady telling Lúcia not to write down the meaning of the vision only for Sister to write it down less than three months later? Zavala does not ask this question (and other related questions), much less answer it.

Secondly, notice how the text of the document is 20-25 lines. The number of lines plays right into the argument from Frère Michel (FM) that Sr. Lúcia’s text was probably (probablement) comprised of 20-25 lines. I demonstrated in my book (chapter 2) that FM appeared to be giving his own interpretation to something Bishop Venâncio had told him. FM provides no quotation marks, thus there is difficulty in discerning the exact words of Bishop Venâncio from the interpretation of Frère Michel.

The fact that the alleged letter of Sr. Lúcia plays right into the above fact as well as it not being in harmony with the distinction between the vision and its meaning tells me that this alleged letter is fraudulent. I wish to point out one other consideration in Zavala’s book. On page 62, he discusses a famous hypothesis in support of a second text: the difference in dates between January 3 and January 9, 1944. Zavala asks, “Why did Lucia wait six full days to inform the Bishop of Leiria that she had already fulfilled his petition?”[3]

The Carmelites answered the question in their biography: Lúcia was permitted to write letters on Sundays.[4] Since January 3, 1944 was a Monday, Sister wrote down the vision in a non-epistolary style document. January 9, 1944 was a Sunday, hence the letter (in epistolary form) to Bishop da Silva. Either Zavala missed this reference or he addresses it later in his book and I missed it. One thing is for sure: in the section, wherein he raises the question, Zavala does not present the Carmelites’ answer. He finishes out the section with a discussion about the new vision afforded to Sr. Lúcia on January 3, 1944.

In conclusion, Zavala appears to have a good desire to examine a matter of interest to many people. Regretfully, he does not appear to see the problem(s) with his presentation despite the fact of the evidence staring him straight in the face. I applaud him for going to the trouble to obtaining a handwriting analysis. It appears, however, that he did not exercise the same caution when it came to checking the information against the known facts and history of Fátima for any potential inconsistencies that questioned his presentation.

Overall, Zavala provides a speculative discussion that cobbles together various sources involving the usual suspects (Socci, Frère Michel, Tornielli, Tosatti, et al.). To Zavala’s credit, he does go back to some of the earlier sources (for example: Canon Barthas). This fact, however, does not save his discussion from becoming a hodge-podge of speculation that employs all sorts of sources in what strikes me as being somewhat indiscriminate. Zavala has an eye for mysticism, not as a theologian but more so as a journalist. This deeply impacts his presentation and runs a serious danger of imparting to people the wrong idea about Fátima.


[1] Tosatti noticed this letter and it appears to be one of the things that drew him to Zavala’s book.

[2] I do not believe that Zavala is the originator of the hoax. In fact, he clearly explains how he came across the letter (p. 233). He received it from an anonymous source in the spam folder of his E-mail account. I have no reason to doubt his account. Besides, this 1 April, 1944 letter has circulated around in the Internet in the past.

[3] ¿Por qué aguardó Lucia entonces seis días completos para comunicarle al Obispo de Leiria que ya había concluido su petición?

[4] Um caminho sob o olhar de Maria (1st edition), 274.

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